A week since my last post and I’m back again! These are crazy times we live in…
This week has been a little better than the last one, and there are definitely moments I’ve even been excited(!) Try not to pity me too much living my sad sad life in a beautiful city, doing well in a good university course, enjoying a wonderful relationship, good friendships and a loving family.
The problem is, no matter how privileged we look on the outside, anyone can experience moments of down-ness, overwhelmed-ness or plain old tired-ness. I can complain of all three.
I have a lot going on in my life, and yet I’m somehow bored. My course is still challenging, although not as much so as in previous years, and I’ve got plenty to do. I’m only just beginning to realise (how blind I’ve been) the factors that might be making me feel this way.
- I’m not learning as much new stuff – this year is based a lot more on my project, which is largely applying stuff I should know and doing skills I learnt earlier this year. My lecture courses seem to overlap a lot with content I’ve already covered in previous years too, which is a bit annoying.
- See point one. Even if I’m not learning the same massive quantities as part of my degree as I used to, I have always been one for learning a lot outside of my courses and ‘mainstream’ education. But I seem to have let it slide, trading a wide variety of hobbies for just one or two.
- Speaking of which, and this is very sad to admit, my hobbies just don’t fill me with the joy they used to. I run once or twice a week, which is fine and it keeps me fit, but I don’t exactly look forward to ploughing forward in the cold and dark (which may be why I’m putting it off by writing this post…). I tutor, but that’s for the money and personal development and CV enhancement and blah blah blah. All good stuff, and again, I like it enough, but it’s not a passion. I go ringing still, which I do love, but with catching up with work and fitting in the other two I don’t do it nearly as much anymore.
Woe is poor old me. The problem is, I could do with a change, but I have so much work to do and there’s only a month left of term and it’s all just left me a bit overwhelmed before I even consider taking up French or committing to writing more or blowing the dust off my keyboard.
Maybe the week 5 blues that never hit last term have finally reared their ugly heads, or maybe the relative lack of a proper holiday over Christmas is catching up with me. I’m ready for a break, or a change, or something, but I don’t know how to implement it into my life, at least not for a long time. For the time being, I keep myself excited for summer by planning all the things I want to do, but even then it seems too short, and far too far away.
Does anyone have any tips? How can I switch things up and regain a bit of the ol’ razzle-dazzle in my life?