People always say that going home for Christmas for the first time after going to university is very weird. It’s understandable – it’s not your home anymore in that you’ve become out of touch with the routines and not all of your things are there, plus you’ve become used to fending for yourself and being more independent.
I didn’t really register any of this weirdness when I got back. I caught up with my family on the evening I arrived back, and then sprung straight back into going over my notes and revising for the exams I’ve had this week, doing Christmas decorating and shopping, and doing a variety of concerts with bands I was in before leaving home.
I went to my Grandparents’ over Christmas and New Year, and struggled to fit in the amount of work I wanted to do, which I found very stressful. Even then, it didn’t seem weird for me, because this is what I’ve done at this time of year for a long time, and I’m used to doing at least some work while there.
What I did find strange was going back to university. It’s this place that you’ve lived for three months, and in my case absolutely loved (but for the difficulty of the work, which I plan on writing about soon), but then left for an entire month. It seems like the dim and distant past, almost a dream. So it’s scary to go back there and try to fit in to life there when it hasn’t been hammered quite so persistently into you. What if your friends have forgotten you? Or you’ve changed back to the person you were before uni over the holidays?
This week I’ve had exams at university, so I’ve been able to focus on them and not think about how strange everything is, and at the beginning of the Christmas holidays I was very busy too, so I think this is why I’m finding everything more normal than others. It’s been easy to slot back into the routine of life, and I wonder why I worried about it at all.